Cardboy To Go

i love ny

2009-08-07T14:43:00.001-07:00

ally from maryland

2009-06-26T04:58:00.001-07:00

tatas

the red brick wall

2009-06-14T02:14:00.001-07:00

new light

2009-05-14T07:51:00.001-07:00

t5 ho 4x24w

2009-05-11T06:09:00.001-07:00

change will come

2009-04-29T11:04:00.001-07:00

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NR link

2009-04-02T10:20:00.001-07:00

http://www.nano-reef.com/forums/index.php?showtopic=192666&st=0&gopid=2177749&#entry2177749

here's the new scape

2009-04-02T06:06:00.001-07:00

clearer shot

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2009-03-28T15:39:00.001-07:00

worldsportsexchange.com

walt clyde frasier

2009-03-23T19:07:00.001-07:00

hackin n whackin
huffin n stuffin
posting n toasting
dishing n swishing
spinning and winning
dancin n prancin
bounding and astounding

The fishy Incarnation of Charlie Chops

2009-03-14T19:04:00.001-07:00

2009-03-14T09:47:00.000-07:00

I am awake.

2009-03-14T08:38:00.001-07:00

I and the public know
What all school children learn,
Those to whom evil is done
Do evil in return.

--W.H. Auden

2009-03-08T09:49:00.000-07:00

Contempt. Control. Excitement.

hands

2009-02-14T21:07:00.001-08:00

kk over t8suited, he flopped 2 pair, got it all in on the turn when a q hit, rivered a q to win

44 in the small blind, flop is a54 - villian had 23, 50 on flop, i bet 100 on river into the nuts

ran aa into qq,15 he raised to 30, check check turn, 50, he goes all in. flop was kkx, he rivered a q

ak in early, i raised to 15 all fold except utg. flop a5q, he checks, i bet 20, he calls. turn comes blank, all in for 40 something, he calls i scop river 8 he has j8o

at 2 off, flop comes at9, i bet 20, 2 callers. turn 9. ibet 40, 1 caller, river t. he bet 40, i go all in 80 more, he showed 1 t - stack at 400

56 lost to river flush, flopped trips - stack at 0

aa into kk, doubled me up, al in preflop, stack at 440

train of thought

2009-02-11T16:49:00.001-08:00

i do not know what i may appear to the world; but to myself i seem to have only been a boy playing on the seashore, and diverting myself in now and then finding a smoother pebble or a prettier shell than ordinary, whilst the great ocean of truth lay all undiscovered before me. -Sir Isaac Newton

2008-06-17T17:07:00.001-07:00

Work Ethic

2008-05-29T17:27:00.001-07:00

work ethic, work ethic, work ethic. the entitlement generation. you reap what you sow. the absurdity of logging hours for the sake of logging hours. dedication. proving your worth. advancing. stagnation? benchmark. light at the end of the tunnel. believing in your own ability. living up to your potential. work hard AND smart. no slacking. sucking it up. budgeting. food costs. almost 30. nothing to show. playtime is over. leave an impression/legacy. grind it out. not the end. not a 9-5. be different. show something. rewrite pitch. pipe. go go go.

The sayings of Muad'Dib

2008-05-07T16:28:00.001-07:00

Deep in the human unconscious is a pervasive need for a logical universe that makes sense. But the real universe is always one step beyond logic.

Paradigm Shift

2008-03-10T17:22:00.001-07:00

i always tell the story of the woman who couldn't quit smoking until she had heard that her aunt died of emphysema (sp?), however i don't think i've really taken the moral of that story to heart.
it's always easier said than done but in history character defining moments have always come out of distinct or implicit struggles and hardships. if you can overcome and refocus your mental state then you will most certainly prevail. i think i've doled out a lot of advice to people in the past but i've never really had someone to give that advice to me when i needed it. i think the time is now for me to go out there and actually practice what i preach.
there are a lot of what ifs and could have beens in the world today and although money isn't everything, it is a good litmus test of how far you were able to push yourself in the capitalistic world we've (i've) been thrust into.
would i be happy just grinding out a 9-5 day job that gives no satisfaction at the end of the day? assuredly not. so then the only other option is to step up and realize the opportunity that has been offered to you and take full advantage while you can. in order to advance, it will not be about doing things correctly or even most efficiently in the beginning. i believe the most important thing will be moving forward in the face of adversity and continually grinding out the day to day even when you feel you are sitting stagnant.

do this for yourself and do this without anyone having to die of emphysema before you realize what's neccesary.

waffle truck

2008-03-01T10:41:00.001-08:00

I am Jack's sense of anger

2008-01-29T18:18:00.000-08:00

Over the years, I've realized that I'm a very angry person by nature. Sometimes I just can't help it and my temper just takes over. I remember I did attempt to curb my anger for a bit but after I stop wearing my patience/calmness trigger, I fell back into my old ways. I get easily agitated these days and someyimes by things that I know I have absolutely no control over.

I'm going to make a cognizant effort starting today (mark my words literally hence the blog post) to try to have more patience and not allow things to boil my temper. At least this way, I'll have some kind of accountability for my resolution.

Maybe I would benefit from some soul-searching and trying to find the root of my anger. If I could rid myself of my temper, I think I would be a remarkedly better person and be able to create stronger friendships and relationships thereby allowing me the opportunity for more success in the future. Think before you act or get mad at something that is either out of your control or non-important in the grand scheme of success you are trying to create for yourself.

No Time

2008-01-28T13:33:00.000-08:00

I vow to not many any time in my life for those people who do not make time for me in their lives. Until we meet again.

Break Up To Make Up

2008-01-25T15:40:00.000-08:00

Tell me what's wrong with you now , tell me why I
Never seem to make you happy though heaven knows I try
What does it take to please you? Tell me just how
I can satisfy you woman, you're drivin' me wild

Break up to make up, that's all we do
First you love me then you hate me, that's a game for fools.
Break up to make up that's all we do,
First you love me then you hate me, that's a game for fools.

When I come home from workin', you're on the phone
Talkin' about how bad I treat you, now tell me I'm wrong
You say it's me who argues, I'll say it's you
We have got to get together or baby, we're through.

Helical-Auxetics

2007-12-06T08:52:00.000-08:00

http://gizmodo.com/gadgets/blast_proof-fabric-defies-belief/zetix-blast+proof-fabric-resists-multiple-car-bombs-makes-our-heads-explode-330343.php

Life

2007-12-02T09:19:00.000-08:00

"6,600 people die everyday in America. The tragedy is not that people die, it's the pathetic circumstances in which they live."

Passion

2007-10-24T06:42:00.001-07:00

When I was playing poker, what drove me to play? What was the driving factor in grinding it out? Was it because I hated the former entry level corporate position I previously had or was it something more profound? I struggle today to find that same level of passion for I'm trying to make hapen today. Perhaps it was the lure of fast money and independently set work hours. That new found freedom was something I never really had while working the 9 to 5. But if that is the argument then the situation I am in now is perfectly analagous to that same kind of freedom and self driven meritocratical system. However hard you work for yourself will yield results equal to the effort you put in. You shall reap what you sow, indeed. Pick up your skirt, and let's show 'em how you can really dance. You don't want to end up like some of the failed lives you see around you everyday. The only difference between a winning poker player and a losing one is passion.

Challenges

2007-10-18T07:43:00.001-07:00

In life, everyone is faced with some sort of challenge everyday. Whether it be as small as choosing which pair of socks to wear or as large as deciding to take a new road in life that will shape the rest of it. Honestly, I don't know how I got where I am but if life was already scripted then rest assured that it would be pretty disinteresting. I once asked 'What is happiness to you?' to many people after watching Vanilla Sky where Cameron Diaz's character asks Tom Cruise's character the same question. Of all the answers I received, my godsister gave me one of the only memorable ones. She profoundly stated that happiness to her is not knowing what will happen tomorrow. To her, knowing that each day would bring a new adventure and challenge was already that she needed to enjoy life. To this day I remember that short conversation over sushi from more than 5 years ago. Her 'come what may' attitude really inspired me, albeit on a subconscious level, to really learn to love the present and the future. Do I know what will happen tomorrow? Assuredly not. However, I do welcome it with open arms because that is what brought me to where I am today.

deal sites

2007-09-17T10:26:00.001-07:00

http://www.skweezer.net/s.aspx/-/www~ebusinessmba~net/articles/comparison-shopping~html

30 free apps

2007-09-17T09:32:00.001-07:00

http://www.skweezer.net/s.aspx/-/www~thesimpledollar~com/2006/12/01/30-essential-pieces-of-free-and-open-software-for-windows

top 10 freeware programs

2007-09-12T15:41:00.001-07:00

http://www.skweezer.net/s.aspx/-/www~liveslick~com/2007/09/top-10-freeware-software-nobody-knows~html

Life, I Wonder; Will It Take Me Under?

2007-09-11T06:56:00.001-07:00

Damn here we go again, people talkin' shit but when shit hit the fan - but everything I'm not made me everything I am.

Opportunities

2007-09-07T07:21:00.001-07:00

Life is funny in the respect that you really just have no idea what is going to come to you. I wonder how many lives would be changed if the willingness to take on some risk was expanded. From what I can gather, after reading all the entrepreneurial stories, success is defined in most situations by first willing to bear a relative amount of insurmountable risk. This would definitely be the majority of the cases and not the minority.
I feel lucky to have that once in a lifetime, one shot to take everything I've ever wanted, a la Eminem, opportunity. Along with the success I've garnered so far I must now understand that much more hard work is waiting ahead of me. Working hard may not necessarily be needed, but working smart and grinding along diligently will allow one to surpass any imposed ceilings on success.
″Work like no one will for 5 years, and live like no one can for the rest of your life″

Motivation

2007-08-24T10:25:00.001-07:00

http://www.skweezer.net/skweeze.aspx?q=http://www.pickthebrain.com/blog/21-proven-motivation-tactics/&i=1

link

2007-08-14T07:42:00.001-07:00

http://www.skweezer.net/s.aspx/-/www~smashingmagazine~com/2007/08/14/best-of-july-2007/

Train rain delay

2007-08-08T16:35:00.001-07:00

Is that all it takes? 3 inches of rain in one short hour and NYC is taken to it's fucking knees. It took me almost 2 hours to get into work today, and only because I was able to drive in. If I tried to take the train earlier in the morning, I have no doubt that I would have been stuck on the train cursing the decrepit MTA system.

In other news, everything ended up going smoothly for me at work and I ready to work my ass off. Not only am I ready, more importantly I am expected to. The COO and head branch manager already know my name so I need to wow the shit out of them. This is exactly the type of jumpstart I needed for my life. Ordinarily I do very well under pressure, unfortunately sometimes I get too relaxed when there isn't enough pressure.

26 is coming soon and this is a perfect time to rehone my discipline to show myself that I can in fact change my habits for my own self-betterment.

This is the first page in a long chapter. I'll drink to that!

2007-08-07T06:16:00.001-07:00

it pays to tell the truth, it only makes cents

tests are over

2007-08-06T15:32:00.000-07:00

i finished my last certification today. i also saw alex roy's car on 52nd st last week. even though he is a huge douchebag, he's my kind of douchebag. i dream to one day participate in the gumball 3000, but first things first. this week coming up is going to be one of the most important weeks of my life. sink or swim andy. most of my entries from my phone are totally ambiguous and i know that, its just that i feel like i cant get my thoughts out fast enough typing with only my thumbs. i do feel like this is my time to shine though. i turn 26 in a short 12 days and i am curious to see if my 26th year on this planet will bring me fortune, fame, success and some sluts, because you know everyone needs a little bit of slut in their life. i feel like i am making leaps and bounds in my maturity which scares me because it is alienating my young, wild, crazy side which has no inhibitions. we all need to grow up sometime i guess don't we? i've been doing a lot of heavy contemplating recently and my head is on straight but i just don't know where my heart is right now. here's to 26 being a whole new year of learning about myself, my life, and the loves of my life.

ac

Waiting

2007-07-25T18:42:00.001-07:00

so i'm waiting to go eat at cafe habana right now. my godsis is late and she hasnt replied to my txt which means she's probably going to be really late. so what a great time to blog a little. it seems like i've been waiting for the past 7 months. this saturday is going to be my last day at my secondary job and the start of the greatest opportunity of my life. the more and more i think about it, the more i want to work harder and succeed, but at the same time there is always a sense of fear when changing your life to do new things.

Cheat Post

2007-07-11T07:28:00.000-07:00

Ok so I'm cheating right now, I'm not actually blogging from my phone. I was asked to write about something though. Actually I was commanded to 'pick one and just blab'.

So I'm going to write about emotional stability and the road to self-actualization. Self-actualization is regarded as the pinnacle of human achievement. Being able to realize this kind of psychological state really stands out to separate humans from animals.

I think a lot of people in the world today are being held back by themselves. These kinds of attitudes can range from the types that always complain all the way to the people who are so full of themselves that to me it's blatantly obvious that they are just totally insecure with themselves and need to over-compensate for their feelings of self-inadequacies. *Cue the guy with a small penis and a Hummer H1.

I've come the realization that everything really begins from within yourself. You are able to control everything in the world right around you. I read an interesting excerpt from taopoker about Sartre's lobster.

It was around 3am and Benjo told me a weird story regarding John-Paul Sartre. I actually started the conversation by asking him something about Sartre. I think it was about him banging Simone de Beauvoir. Anyway, Benjo told me how Simone de Beauvoir made him take a holiday in Southern France because he was too burnt out after experiencing hallucinations, specifically one about a lobster following him around. He had been doing too much mescaline and was feeling the residual effects of that drug. For years the lobster would follow him around and he made the decision that he was not going to see the lobster any more... and the lobster vanished and ceased to exist anymore.

I had a moment of clarity and finally figured it out. Everything. Especially what Sartre was trying to teach us... that we have to make a choice in life. And not just about what we do, but what we believe, and the values we hold. Those choices are not going to be made for us or nor should they be dictated by those around us. He decided to stop seeing the lobsters and they were gone.

It rang a bell instantly. It made me think about free will, choices and the ability to control our own lives any way we really want. But it's not to say it's as simple as just thinking it. You need to will yourself to it. Something that is much easier said than done. For more about self-actualization go here.

grinding

2007-07-02T14:30:00.001-07:00

this is the moment of truth, no time to back down and no time to fuck up anymore. this will basically set me up for the rest of my life. just remember that if you are the best, you need to act that way.

walking to the beat of my own drum

2007-05-26T17:59:00.000-07:00

for as long as i can remember i've always been doing things my way, my style. that's not to say i haven't been blessed with the greatest group of friends to grow up with but i still have this feeling of independent andy trying to make his way out in any way he can. dance,dance,dance

growing up

2007-05-25T16:44:00.001-07:00

times have changed. i'm definitely not as naive as i used to be and i'm light years smarter than i was even a few short 3 years ago. it seems people these days, older or younger, have a lot of life problems. the issues they talk about are usually social. social problems that have been conquered in my life or my close friends' lives before. as a collective group, i am sure that MMs has gathered a whole set of life experiences that we've been able to share and break down to learn from. how is life without a huge support system? how is it to live with everything being internalized and no one to share it with?

life has become very philisophical to me of late. trying to balance happiness and success, meaning monetary success, i've started to wonder if they are indeed one and the same or not. i've been leaning towards not for a long time and i still think thats the case.. for now

1st mobile post

2007-05-25T13:24:00.000-07:00

so im at my computer at work but blogging from my phone... lets see how interesting we can make this mobile blogging ishhhhh