Helical-Auxetics

http://gizmodo.com/gadgets/blast_proof-fabric-defies-belief/zetix-blast+proof-fabric-resists-multiple-car-bombs-makes-our-heads-explode-330343.php

Life

"6,600 people die everyday in America. The tragedy is not that people die, it's the pathetic circumstances in which they live."

Passion

When I was playing poker, what drove me to play? What was the driving factor in grinding it out? Was it because I hated the former entry level corporate position I previously had or was it something more profound? I struggle today to find that same level of passion for I'm trying to make hapen today. Perhaps it was the lure of fast money and independently set work hours. That new found freedom was something I never really had while working the 9 to 5. But if that is the argument then the situation I am in now is perfectly analagous to that same kind of freedom and self driven meritocratical system. However hard you work for yourself will yield results equal to the effort you put in. You shall reap what you sow, indeed. Pick up your skirt, and let's show 'em how you can really dance. You don't want to end up like some of the failed lives you see around you everyday. The only difference between a winning poker player and a losing one is passion.

Challenges

In life, everyone is faced with some sort of challenge everyday. Whether it be as small as choosing which pair of socks to wear or as large as deciding to take a new road in life that will shape the rest of it. Honestly, I don't know how I got where I am but if life was already scripted then rest assured that it would be pretty disinteresting. I once asked 'What is happiness to you?' to many people after watching Vanilla Sky where Cameron Diaz's character asks Tom Cruise's character the same question. Of all the answers I received, my godsister gave me one of the only memorable ones. She profoundly stated that happiness to her is not knowing what will happen tomorrow. To her, knowing that each day would bring a new adventure and challenge was already that she needed to enjoy life. To this day I remember that short conversation over sushi from more than 5 years ago. Her 'come what may' attitude really inspired me, albeit on a subconscious level, to really learn to love the present and the future. Do I know what will happen tomorrow? Assuredly not. However, I do welcome it with open arms because that is what brought me to where I am today.

deal sites

http://www.skweezer.net/s.aspx/-/www~ebusinessmba~net/articles/comparison-shopping~html

30 free apps

http://www.skweezer.net/s.aspx/-/www~thesimpledollar~com/2006/12/01/30-essential-pieces-of-free-and-open-software-for-windows

top 10 freeware programs

http://www.skweezer.net/s.aspx/-/www~liveslick~com/2007/09/top-10-freeware-software-nobody-knows~html

Life, I Wonder; Will It Take Me Under?

Damn here we go again, people talkin' shit but when shit hit the fan - but everything I'm not made me everything I am.

Opportunities

Life is funny in the respect that you really just have no idea what is going to come to you. I wonder how many lives would be changed if the willingness to take on some risk was expanded. From what I can gather, after reading all the entrepreneurial stories, success is defined in most situations by first willing to bear a relative amount of insurmountable risk. This would definitely be the majority of the cases and not the minority.
I feel lucky to have that once in a lifetime, one shot to take everything I've ever wanted, a la Eminem, opportunity. Along with the success I've garnered so far I must now understand that much more hard work is waiting ahead of me. Working hard may not necessarily be needed, but working smart and grinding along diligently will allow one to surpass any imposed ceilings on success.
″Work like no one will for 5 years, and live like no one can for the rest of your life″

Motivation

http://www.skweezer.net/skweeze.aspx?q=http://www.pickthebrain.com/blog/21-proven-motivation-tactics/&i=1

link

http://www.skweezer.net/s.aspx/-/www~smashingmagazine~com/2007/08/14/best-of-july-2007/

Train rain delay

Is that all it takes? 3 inches of rain in one short hour and NYC is taken to it's fucking knees. It took me almost 2 hours to get into work today, and only because I was able to drive in. If I tried to take the train earlier in the morning, I have no doubt that I would have been stuck on the train cursing the decrepit MTA system.

In other news, everything ended up going smoothly for me at work and I ready to work my ass off. Not only am I ready, more importantly I am expected to. The COO and head branch manager already know my name so I need to wow the shit out of them. This is exactly the type of jumpstart I needed for my life. Ordinarily I do very well under pressure, unfortunately sometimes I get too relaxed when there isn't enough pressure.

26 is coming soon and this is a perfect time to rehone my discipline to show myself that I can in fact change my habits for my own self-betterment.

This is the first page in a long chapter. I'll drink to that!

it pays to tell the truth, it only makes cents

tests are over

i finished my last certification today. i also saw alex roy's car on 52nd st last week. even though he is a huge douchebag, he's my kind of douchebag. i dream to one day participate in the gumball 3000, but first things first. this week coming up is going to be one of the most important weeks of my life. sink or swim andy. most of my entries from my phone are totally ambiguous and i know that, its just that i feel like i cant get my thoughts out fast enough typing with only my thumbs. i do feel like this is my time to shine though. i turn 26 in a short 12 days and i am curious to see if my 26th year on this planet will bring me fortune, fame, success and some sluts, because you know everyone needs a little bit of slut in their life. i feel like i am making leaps and bounds in my maturity which scares me because it is alienating my young, wild, crazy side which has no inhibitions. we all need to grow up sometime i guess don't we? i've been doing a lot of heavy contemplating recently and my head is on straight but i just don't know where my heart is right now. here's to 26 being a whole new year of learning about myself, my life, and the loves of my life.

ac

Waiting

so i'm waiting to go eat at cafe habana right now. my godsis is late and she hasnt replied to my txt which means she's probably going to be really late. so what a great time to blog a little. it seems like i've been waiting for the past 7 months. this saturday is going to be my last day at my secondary job and the start of the greatest opportunity of my life. the more and more i think about it, the more i want to work harder and succeed, but at the same time there is always a sense of fear when changing your life to do new things.

Cheat Post

Ok so I'm cheating right now, I'm not actually blogging from my phone. I was asked to write about something though. Actually I was commanded to 'pick one and just blab'.

So I'm going to write about emotional stability and the road to self-actualization. Self-actualization is regarded as the pinnacle of human achievement. Being able to realize this kind of psychological state really stands out to separate humans from animals.

I think a lot of people in the world today are being held back by themselves. These kinds of attitudes can range from the types that always complain all the way to the people who are so full of themselves that to me it's blatantly obvious that they are just totally insecure with themselves and need to over-compensate for their feelings of self-inadequacies. *Cue the guy with a small penis and a Hummer H1.

I've come the realization that everything really begins from within yourself. You are able to control everything in the world right around you. I read an interesting excerpt from taopoker about Sartre's lobster.

It was around 3am and Benjo told me a weird story regarding John-Paul Sartre. I actually started the conversation by asking him something about Sartre. I think it was about him banging Simone de Beauvoir. Anyway, Benjo told me how Simone de Beauvoir made him take a holiday in Southern France because he was too burnt out after experiencing hallucinations, specifically one about a lobster following him around. He had been doing too much mescaline and was feeling the residual effects of that drug. For years the lobster would follow him around and he made the decision that he was not going to see the lobster any more... and the lobster vanished and ceased to exist anymore.

I had a moment of clarity and finally figured it out. Everything. Especially what Sartre was trying to teach us... that we have to make a choice in life. And not just about what we do, but what we believe, and the values we hold. Those choices are not going to be made for us or nor should they be dictated by those around us. He decided to stop seeing the lobsters and they were gone.

It rang a bell instantly. It made me think about free will, choices and the ability to control our own lives any way we really want. But it's not to say it's as simple as just thinking it. You need to will yourself to it. Something that is much easier said than done. For more about self-actualization go here.

grinding

this is the moment of truth, no time to back down and no time to fuck up anymore. this will basically set me up for the rest of my life. just remember that if you are the best, you need to act that way.

walking to the beat of my own drum

for as long as i can remember i've always been doing things my way, my style. that's not to say i haven't been blessed with the greatest group of friends to grow up with but i still have this feeling of independent andy trying to make his way out in any way he can. dance,dance,dance

growing up

times have changed. i'm definitely not as naive as i used to be and i'm light years smarter than i was even a few short 3 years ago. it seems people these days, older or younger, have a lot of life problems. the issues they talk about are usually social. social problems that have been conquered in my life or my close friends' lives before. as a collective group, i am sure that MMs has gathered a whole set of life experiences that we've been able to share and break down to learn from. how is life without a huge support system? how is it to live with everything being internalized and no one to share it with?

life has become very philisophical to me of late. trying to balance happiness and success, meaning monetary success, i've started to wonder if they are indeed one and the same or not. i've been leaning towards not for a long time and i still think thats the case.. for now

1st mobile post

so im at my computer at work but blogging from my phone... lets see how interesting we can make this mobile blogging ishhhhh